I have only been to Rhode Island once in my life and that was AFTER I accepted my offer to Teach for America. So, naturally, I have mixed emotions about moving there. I thought it could be helpful to write it out, so here goes nothing.
- EXCITED - It was my second choice, so I was very excited to open the email and see Providence, RI. This means I will have the opportunity to apply to Brown University for their Urban Education Policy Masters Program! Plus, I'm not a big city girl, so tiny Rhode Island should be a great fit.
- COLD - My body shivers thinking about what Winter will be like. I've lived in Texas for most of my life, so I have never really experienced Winter before. No joke, I freak out when it drops below 40... BUT, this gave me a great excuse to shop during the holidays, and I must say, I got pretty lucky with some winter staple finds. I linked and talked about my finds towards the end of this post if you're interested. Oh, and did I mention I'm allergic to wool AND cashmere, so FML.
- ANXIOUS - I accepted my Rhode Island TFA offer back in November, so I've had a lot of time for it to sink in that I'm moving. And lots of time + over thinking + lots of uncertainty = a very anxious Maria. The uncertainty is killing me. I don't know where I'm living. I don't know what grade I am teaching yet (it'll be Middle or High School Math). I don't know which school I will be teaching at. I don't know if I can attend friends' weddings because of potential TFA weekend commitments that I don't know about yet. SO many unknowns, and my Type A personality is not handling it well.
- ANTSY - Related to the above, I've known about this move and career switch for a while now... And while the break before starting is nice, I'm a bit antsy to get the ball rolling and just start already. I'm sure I'll regret saying this about a month or so in ;) but I am so ready to start.
- TRAVEL BUG - I know I won't have much time to spare in my first few years of teaching and going back to school, but the New England area is new to me and I'm excited to explore the area. In Texas, a 3 hour drive takes you from one major city to another major city WITHIN Texas. But in New England, 3 hours can take me across multiple states, and 5 hours can take from me Rhode Island to Montreal, Canada. So I'm definitely going to try to travel and explore new places while I am living up there.
- SCARED - I am so scared that I am not going to be good enough at my job. At my last job, I like to think I was pretty good at it and did it well. But I could always hide behind my computer screen and know that it was just a report that could be fixed if I made an error. Now, it will be some kids education, what they're learning, how they progress in the future... there is so much more riding on me and doing a good enough job. Even then, I don't want to do good enough, I want to be better. And that makes me scared about all my shortcomings, all of the challenges I will face, all of the new situations, and everything else that comes with a new job and the public education sector.
- EXCITED - I'm going to end with the same emotion I started with. Because as much as the previous three emotions are true, I'm also excited for the challenges; the uncertainty that will come with the job and living in a new city; working in an industry that I am actually passionate about; and hopefully making a tiny change somewhere that benefits someone somehow.
So there you have it folks... I'm a pot of mixed emotions and that is that. The move is happening. The career switch is happening. And life must go on! BUT, I will always have Emerald & Shea as a way to relieve my stress levels :)
Hoping some of my Sale finds will help me survive my first real Winter (fingers crossed).
(1) Ugg Earmuffs - shop here
These are normally $65, but I found them at Saks OFF Fifth for under $30!!! I wear my hair up 90% of the time, so wearing beanies are annoying because I am constantly taking my hair down and putting it back up.
(2) Ugg Snow boots - shop here
I waited for Nordstrom to have a sale, and I snagged these after Christmas for under $100!!! I have Sperry duck boots, but they're not lined and 2 pairs of socks didn't help when walking around Boston in sub 30 degrees and snow. I hope these will do the trick and also prevent me from eating s*** when I'm walking to and from places.
(3) Down Parka that goes lower than my knees - shop here
This isn't the exact one. Mine is black, and I got it at the outlets in Round Rock, TX (who would've thought they would sell such a heavy coat in Texas?!). The best part... I got it for under $80 and the tag says it's good weathers down to -20 degrees Farenheit.... I hope I never have to report back on the accuracy of that claim.